Notes from the studio- one week of turning up

One week of turning up. I’ve set the intention to be in my studio everyday in June to see what effect the act of being present will have on my art. The ball is rolling. I’m enjoying the lightness of my experience. Previously, time in the studio felt precious and limited because it was, I didn’t have much time down there. Each visit felt pressured to be worthwhile and productive. I learned that this wasn’t always possible and yet the feeling of wasting an opportunity felt big if I showed up to the studio and didn’t make something. Now, I feel the abundance of opportunity, if I have a quiet one looking, reading or tidying it feels fine in the grander scheme as the reoccurring opportunity is at the forefront. Tonight, I left things out saying to myself I can carry on tomorrow. It’s liberating.

That ‘carrying on’ is what’s keeping me motivated. I don’t want to be the one to ruin my streak without good reason.

There have been challenges too, more than once this week I’ve got to the end of a long day and had to drag myself out of the house. This next week I’m trying to plan ahead so there’s less evenings spent there, to avoid that feeling of having to go.

I’m beginning to have bigger conversations with myself about my work. How can i express some of the wider themes I’m interested in, I want to use this time to try some stuff out as the thought process is staying fresh.

It’s been interesting to me to begin to understand priorities and how important they are to getting anything done. This challenge has moved my need to be at BV to the top of the list where as previously it was a ‘ nice to have’ after other responsibilities had been filled. Before I sound all Cinderella, I was also getting in my own way by thinking I can go later or it would be better to stay at home and rest so when I do go I have energy. It’s only been 7 days and I’m registering that it gives me energy to be at the studio and certainly helps me sleep better.

I’m excited about the rest of the month.